The More The Merrier - From 1 to 2 kids

It has been years this blog hasn't been updated. Honestly, I had completely forgotten about my blog until my friend mentioned it. Guilty as charge! Ohh, how long has it been since my last posting? She was encouraging me to write again. At first I was reluctant because I have 2 kids to take care off. But I shouldn't make it as an excuse right as so many mommies out there still have plenty of time blogging. Hopefully, I could find some time to write about how's life has been for me especially on my journey as a full time housewife. 3 months ago, my life as a mother was being upgraded. From 1 daughter, now I have 1 more son. Definitely, life will become more interesting and thrilling.

Honestly, when I was in my early 20s it was never came across my mind to become a SHOM  (staying at home mom) but before I got married I had the idea of taking care my own kids at least for 2 years. So I did. I resigned from my job to become a full time house wife. It wasn't an easy journey. You will understand me if you have kids. Sleepless night, dirty diapers, messy house and etc... 

I thought to myself that I wish I didn't quit my job and I was planning to return to work again as soon as possible after my 1st born turned 1 year old. But God has a different plan. I got pregnant again when my daughter turn 14 months. I didn't complaint however I was worried if I could manage to take care of my daughter and myself during pregnancy. My focused was on the morning sickness and all because I had a very bad morning sickness throughout my first pregnancy. Nevertheless, i thank God that I survived! HALLELUJAH!! I didn't have bad morning sickness. I craved for certain food and feeling fatigued at times. It was a smooth sailing pregnancy. During my  28th weeks of pregnancy sugar level checked up, I was diagnosed with GDM however everything still under control. 

God was with me throughout the second pregnancy journey. He is faithful. I was praying for a normal labor. My gynea has pre informed me that I may need to do induce labor again. Oh no..The reason was I had GDM and my baby size could be bigger. The doctor gave us options to choose the date or wait until 39 weeks (not more than 40 weeks). When my husband and I were talking about it , at first we were excited to choose the same date as my first born. However, after much thought and prayer we decided to wait upon the Lord's timing and surrender it all to God. We still hoping that the baby will choose to come out on the 15th May 2017. I was hoping and praying that I don't have to go through induce labor because the pain was super painful. Thank God it was a fast labor. 

On 13th May 2017, I had some bleeding. We were so happy because this was one of the symptoms of labor. So we went to see my gynea. Nevertheless, when the gynea checked they was no opening and he said , maybe in 1 or 2 days time. So, we became even more excited to wait for the arrivals of our second baby on the 15th May. At 4am , early morning on the 14th May, I had minor contractions. I go tstarted to count the contractions interval using apps. The interval wasn't consistent between 20  min to 10 min for each contractions. So, when we informed my gynea ,he said probably I will give birth the next day which is on the 15th. We thought how wonderful it will be to celebrate both of our children birthday party and save cost!

To cut the long story short, at 8pm the contractions I felt are getting intense and the interval are 5 minutes apart within 1 hour. So, my gynea asked me to come and admit into the hospital. When I got admitted, it's already 9.30pm. My gynea came and checked the opening it was already 4cm. He was still very positive that i will give birth after midnight (ehich is on the 15th May) and he said that my husband still have time  to fetch my mother from airport and come back. At 10.15pm, everyone left including my gynea. I was alone and  reading Book of Proverb while waiting. As I was reading, the contractions became more painful and the gap was closer and closer. Once I finished reading, it was 10.45pm, I called the nurse and they checked my opening it was already 8cm. That was fast. In a minute after that, my water bag burst and they brought me to the labor room. That was already 11pm and I called my husband to update him. The gynea came at 11.19pm and I gave birth at 11.19pm. It was a super fast labor and I know the pain wasn't anything like my first labor. I truly thank God for His protection. My husband came at 11.40pm. He missed the moment but we can't do anything since he wants to come out. I forgot that 14th May was a mother's Day because I was busy monitoring my contractions progress.

Now, I know God has a different plan and different thoughts. I see my baby boy as the best Mother's Day gift anyone could ever asked for. Yes. My baby was born on Mother's Day and I felt so special and privileged to become a mother to 2 kids now. We named him Evangel yet couldn't find a middle name to him until 1 hour before I gave birth , I found the name Lemuel in Proverbs 31. King Lemuel. Lemuel means devoted to God. Evangel means good news. So welcome to the world Evangel Lemuel. We love you much my son!

The Journey Has Just Begun

My last post was almost 1 year ago =)

Suddenly today I feel like blogging. My last post was so significant especially in my walk with God.
Since then I've learnt not to understand everything but to just trust God in everything. Wholeheartedly.

I never knew that what I've gone through last year has birthed such a faith in me to believe God for an amazing future He has prepared for me. It wasn't only last year but as I looked back I knew in my heart that everything that happened in the past few years was to prepared me for something certain.

First of all, I learnt to SURRENDER all my desire and wants including my past, present and future. Allowing Him to work through in every areas of my life. When Jesus surrendered His life on the cross He did it without holding back anything but He has given up everything for my sake. In my personal perspective of surrender it is not merely talking about giving up my own will but to TRUST God enough to handle my life - my desire and wants. In Matthew 6:10 says Your Kingdom come, Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.

Secondly, I learnt to activate my FAITH. What is faith? In Hebrew 11: 1 says faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. I do not know what exactly lies ahead of me but I choose to have faith Jesus knowing that He has the best interest for me. He also assures me that He knows the plans He has for me, plans to give me hope and a future (Jeremiah 29 : 11).

Thirdly, I learnt to OBEY the Lord. This are the hardest part of all because I am afraid if I heard it wrongly. I am afraid if the Word that I received and the conviction in my heart wasn't from God. But it became very strong each day as time past. Of course, it took me a while to really think through and prayed through the major decision I was about to made. Yes. To come to this stage of critical decision, I need to surrender and to have faith in God then only I am able to obey the Lord. I took the step of faith and asked God for a sign. I did my part - I applied for the post and the rest I leave it to God. He opened the door and now I join as a full-time staff in serving the Lord. Looking back at it, I never regretted with the decision I've made.

Now, I see how things starts to fall into places one by one. It was amazing how one decision made has brought me into something I could never imagine but I know it was a dream come true which I had surrendered earlier on to Him. My heart desire, I just want His perfect will to be done in my life which are the purpose I am predestined for...way before I was formed in my mother's womb (Jeremiah 1:5).

I am excited because this journey has just begun... ^_^