When My Best GF Tied The Knot - A Tribute

i am sure that i am so bad in updating my blog..hahaha..it doesn't matter anymore, if i feel like doing it then i'll update. :p .. but i have a journal which i update for almost everyday :) ..its just the same thing but blogging are more to share my life to people thou.. sharing is caring. thats what they called it..and thats the reason why i want to update my blog too.. haha..this is an indeed a lousy intro.. :p

what i want to blog about? ..actually its about two of my best gf who got married this year. finally, they tied the knot. ermm, firstly, i want to share about my first gf who got married on feb 12, this year. it was a great moment to be shared and remembered. it was my first time coordinating a wedding (church wedding). to be frank, i don't know much on how to coordinate and run things but i thank God for the opportunities to be part of Fiona's & Ema's weddings last year. i learnt alot from these two friends of mine. they were indeed a good planner thou. and thank you to the internet too.. it helps alot.. :) honestly, i felt a 'lost' in my heart when she got married but i knew its just me being emo. haha..she's still the best gf i ever had. imagine we got to know each other when we were so young and we shared our childhood's, teen's and adult's life together. i still remembered clearly in my memory when we used to play together after school. and when we had our first phone line (Telekom), she is the first person that i called to share the moment. we used to play cooking together, play dolls together and grooming our own self together.haha. quarrel? of course, maybe she forgot about this but not me. we didn't talk to each other for quite some time because of 20 cents. haha. that was extremely funny. well, we were young and we can't reason very well. that's why. anyhow, its funny when i think of it again. hahaha..(Rolling :D ) but of course our relationship recovered after that. times healed! erm, i remembered that when i slept over at her place her parents had to remind us that its time to go to bed coz we never realized that we talk til very late night. there was one time when she sms me and asked me to guess something, i replied her with a short msg guessing that she got into a relationship (which means having a boyfriend la) ..she told me YES!! haha..her first love and now officially her husband (lucky guy :p ). when i did very bad during one of the major exam in my life, she's the one who comforts me and said that there will be a lot more opportunity for my future and asked me not to never give up (i almost cried during those time). she's indeed a friend in times on need. she's not only a good friend to me but she is like a sister - she used to cook for me and do my laundry as well :p. i tell you she's so wonderful to be friend with. (not using her la) and although i was away from KK for many years for study purposes and yet we are still so closed..thanks for the invention of the communication tools which makes the world has no boundaries :) its indeed a great invention. In fact, God has been so great and bless our friendship so much through these years. at the end of 2005 i decided to further my study in KL and wondering how's life would be. out of the blue she called me and said that she was going to be posted in KL to teach in a primary school. i jumped up and down and told her about my plans. i believe it was God who made this arrangements for us. =) Praise God !!

hehe..okok.. come back to her wedding, ya.. she was a bit tensed the day before her wedding day (partly it was because of me being demanding i thought :p )..but the whole things changed when we surprise her with a small party the night b4 her wedding - > bachelorette party <- .. it was a simple party but it impacted all of us so much especially the brides.. (hope so :p) . during the actual day we went for breakfast @ the last meals for her as a single lady :( she still a bit tensed during that time and before we make a move to the church i decided to pray for her. too religious oh me..haha.. to cut the story short, her wedding went smoothly and finished ON TIME!!.. i could say that her wedding was simply simple but it has a deep sentiment to me. i said this becoz during the photo sessions, i knew that i could no longer hold my tears. thats why i turned my face right after i congratulate and hugged her. if i recall this i still had the same feeling . T_T

But of course i am happy for her =)

i am so grateful to know her and to have her as my best gf. when she lost her elder sister we were still very young and we couldn't comprehend about life and death. we continued life together and enjoy our days. one thing i learned from her, she took the roles as an elder sister by doing the house chores and etc. she's the best!! well, maybe its God's plan for me to be part of her life so that she won't feel lonely without her sister (wah, what a sad story ohh.. T.T) i also realized that my temperament and personality are way different than her but we made a good friends together. i wish her happy all the days to come and i know very well that she longs to have kids ASAP..haha..still praying that her wish will come soon too..hehe..

and i just had my trip to kk during my gf ester's wedding (i will blog about this as well,.. soon :p) last hols and i had a good catch-up with them :) yeahhh......

ba, wanna pack and go back home now..

***************The Moment ***************

Deep sentiment..

The 'Pearl' of my heart..

A symbolic of LOVE

Soon to be the brides sis-in-law

The brides and the entourage

The brother who loves her at all times

The friendship that was build through ups and downs.

Natural :p

Her bouquet ^^

Josoni @ Ikie & Myself...Taken during our free bunk at Cititel Hotel KK - June 2010

(TQVM to my friend Simi ^^)

Transformation - In another way

Seriouly, i am not good at blogging at all. i thik it really take courage, time, energy, effort and 'forcing effort' to update this blog. pls apologize me n i should have take back my words when i said that i wanted to update the activities of my cg in here. my bad.

nevertheless, i really wanted to say this, its embarassing but truth is - i am facing with skin problem at the moment and it is not normal.*sobbing*.if u read this pls say a short prayer-long will be much appreaciated-so that God will heal my skin problem.AMEN.Thank you! GBU.

for my entire life, i never hv such experiences as this. my skin to be specific my face - was so not in good condition. every time i looked at my face i feel so sad.frankly speaking. but really i dont know what to do. maybe its time to end this stressful/challenging job!! arghh i am praying had. God show me what to do.*weeping* (still i am grateful that this is still a lot better compare to some that i've seen-God you still love me thanks)

ppl starts telling me that i've got to do something. ya ishould! the cause if these? maybe its becz of the hormone thingy or the working place or the stressful and busy lifestyle that i have. i dont know! *frustrated*

so then i decided to get an acne treatment product and obviously it is not cheap. arghh..i just got back from holiday n i've spent so much moeny actually saving for holiday. infact, i plan to save some money to get a new hp but arghh. i guess i have to wait till next year. be grateful with what i have. be content. greatest lesson!! to recap, for this year, i went out of borneo for 4 times - kl 2x, kk 1x, singapore 1x. can you imagine it was a big investment here...however,on top the holiday thing, i went to those places for a reasons. mainl attending church events, family gathering and graduation which is superb and worth to go!

ok. the main point is, i dont have enough money/saving to visit the skincare therapist to do facial. all that i can afford is to get them to advise me and i finally bought their product - dermalogica. it cost me rm176 after discount. what i get? this...

1. clearing skin wash - 50ml
2. clearing mattifier - 15ml
3. overnight clearing gel - 15ml
4. sebum clearing masque - 22ml
5. oil control lotion - sample in packet form

can u imagine how small is the product packaging? its a travel kit actually. ive used their product before. during those time my skin was ok even before i switched to these product until recently i have this problem happened on me. btw, thank God tha i still have some of the left over moisturer, toner and scrub-this was from last year.haha..fuhh..luckily i dint throw it away at the frst place.well, i am a client of dermalogica b4 but i decided to switched to other brand coz i thought i could save some money if i used a cheaper product - still under good brand name also la. but PADAN MUKA!! ok i didn want to blame or point at any particular product :p. maybe i shouldnt change the product but during that time i cant afford to continue to use dermalogica product it is way expensive. unemployed ma :( ...arghh..btw, i asked the lady who is assisting me on the product and she said i can used the left over product up to 3 years. Thank GOD! yeahh...

as a result, the pimples are now reducing but still popping here and there. and the worse is there is and ugly scar and blemish on my face..*thunder and raining*..arghh how suppose i get rid of this? looking at it make me feel so 'hurt and in pain'. never imagine that i'll get to go thru this. i wanted to put some make up to cover the ugliness of it but i am afraid it will add more harm to my skin. i pray everythibg will goes fine and comes back to normal after 1 or 2 months from today.

God help me! You are the Creator of all and even the small, unforseen, micro, little, cell on my face is made by Your Mighty hands. So, i pray in my desperation that You will just reach out to me and help me in this - do me some miracles. I may sounds so ridiculous here but i am so desperate God. I know that You care every single thing about me even including this fact. Thank you. In Jesus name i Pray. AMEN. *LOUDLY*

t!m3

Err, i remembered i said that i want to use this blog to update all the activities going on especially for my cell group but i found that i didn't manage to find and allocate time for this.

Pai seh..pai seh..

So, now it will really take me a long long time to update my blog (just realized it now.. )

Even now i have no idea of what to type..ok la..

Bye

(hahaha.. =p )

1st Cell Group Meeting - Resolution

Yeahhh~!!!

Finally, we had conducted our 1st cell group meeting for the year of 2010 yesterday night. Its very simple and seems to be a little quiet because there were only 4 people attending the meeting - Junior, Nadia, Neeva and myself. Keith he can't make it for some reason. Anyhow, we started out with dinner and while eating we shared our stories/testimonies. We did it very casually and naturally.

Before i continue, i would love to give a little bit intro of my cell group member =) .

Nadia - She is 16 years old. She's pretty =) She told me that she has gain some weight and i can see that. On top of that, she has an incredibly great voice. She is a good singer.

Neeva - Neeva is Nadia's sister. She is 2 years old younger than Nadia but for me her looks does not represent her age. That's a good thing for her coz people can't mess up with her though =). She's cute and a very sweet girl to me.

Keith - An elder brother to Nadia and Neeva. He's sitting for SPM exams this year. Ermmm.. cool and handsome! Girls out there watch out =p. He plays guitar and a future guitarist for God i believe =).

Junior - His given name is Jeremiah Junior but i think he is more recognized as Junior. During his UPSR exams last year, he managed to get 3As and 2Bs. Apparently, he went to the same school together with his mom, he as a student and his mother as a teacher.

Nah, that's all about it.

Ok, lets begin. Yes!! Yesterday night was a good start for each and everyone of us who made it but Junior almost fell asleep towards the end of the meeting because he used to sleep as early as 8.30pm. =) since it is still in the beginning of the year, i got the idea of bringing them into a deep thought of whay they want to do/or what they want to achieve this year. As a student, a child and a servant in God's Kingdom there are so many things that need to be done. The one that focuses, can achieve it by God's grace.

For this reason, i gave each of them one paper with 4 question to be answered by them. I won't tell what the questions are but it is enough to open up their mind to think of something that they want to achieve. Later on, we spent some time to share on what we had written down.

In fact, as we proceed and go deeper in our sharing, they did not only share their hopes but also their fears. I believe this is not a coincidence since it fitted so well with the verse that i prepared earlier - Jeremiah 29:11 I alone know the plans i have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for (GNB).

Nadia sharing her resolutions

Just before the end of our meeting, i took out another paper which i prepared earlier ( I tried to designed it as nice as possible =p). This time, i told them to write down their hopes and dreams on it. So, we took about 15 minutes to get this done. We fold the letter and put them in separate envelope ( which i made it by myself) and sealed it. It's not the end of it, by the end of this year or maybe early next year, we will take this envelope and brings back our memories to what we have written here. We will then see and testify that our God is great and faithful, who is willing to answer and grant the desires of His children (of course according to His will =D ).

Last but not least, we prayed and that's the end of our first meeting =).

Thank GOD~!!! Til then see you again next week!!

My Letter, My Wish, My Hope

1 year from now =)

Blog = Cell Group =)

Ohh dear,

I have been wondering on how to fully utilize this blog. Frankly, i have my own journal (been writing since 15 years old - those time i am still using a book) which i keep updated regularly, so no point to repeat the same thing here. Plus, i don't really have the time to do that after 7am =).

This morning, as i sat down and doing my devotion time, my mind was being occupied with = Cell Group. I haven't got the time to really spend on this matter. My bad :( But in my resolution this year, i wanted to give more in this cell group and i must do this! So yeah, as i prayed about it, all of a sudden, so many things came across my mind. Wow, with my laptop infront of me, i transfered all the idea into my laptop..haha..of course by typing them out la =p .. Yeah, something is moving now!! Then again, something which makes me even more excited is when my own blog came across my mind. ahahha..I was like, oh ya..i should have use my blog since it is so empty and plain!!!!

Nah, to motivate myself to be a good cell group leader and to be more committed in investing in these young people's lives, i was thinking to update all the activities in my blog. It may not be the most exciting things going around on this planet earth but it may become something significant to us =) . Nah, that is why i am so excited today! Yuhuuu.. :D

So, wait and see!! I believe my blog will be more meaningful and lots of pictures will be added as well so that it won't look to plain anymore =)

Yeah...Love it...Love it..!!!!

??????????

I am thinking.

I am thinking.

Reflection???

I wish and hope the answer will come.

It will. One day!!

Working ISn't S0 Bad @ aLL =p

Almost there..almost!

Huh, yeah, I’m working for almost 3 months now!

Feels good to earn money from my own sweat!! I know how hard it is to work when compares to studying. This are my first job after graduate from Uni and I am so blessed because I managed to get a job exactly on what I’ve studied b4!!! MARKETING!!

I thank GOD for this job/position though it is more likely to be a man’s job. Frankly speaking I have no idea on what to do after this company offered me this job. I tell ya, knowledge is as far as the east from west when compared to practical thing.

From the very beginning, I knew that by God’s grace that I managed to get this job. As I went to work on 1st day, all that I have is ‘CONFIDENCE’ and ‘DETERMINATION’ to learn/work. It WORKS on me!

Here my first assignment comes. I was directed to meet with one of the richest businessman in Miri. I was like so many of you out there who lacks of confidence and afraid of failure. But determination forced me to leave behind all my worries. I must not let anything stop me from performing well on this task given. After ‘strategizing’ my plan, I made a telephone call to this ‘man’ and started talking to him confidently. Praise GOD! The result was SUPERB!! He is willing to see me with only that one attempt of telephone call. I jumped up and down!! Unbelievable!!!

So the following day, I called him up to arrange for an appointment. He told me the details and here I am facing another ‘giant’ in front of me. This is another story, to talk to somebody on the phone are not as terrifying as meeting somebody face to face. I can’t avoid from meeting people since this is my job – what I’ve studied -. I told myself GO FOR IT. My superior told me this, ‘ the worse thing that can happen to you is when he rejected your product’. I kept this in mind and met him. Btw, meeting people like him requires boldness and courage. I kept telling myself, I CAN DO IT!!

So, I went to his office. Know what??? Nobody cares or entertain me at the first place. I felt horrible!!! He was late and I was told by this one lady to wait at the company’s lobby area. Worse come to worst when the air condition is not working at all. I was sweating but still pretending to be alright and still putting my make-up of confidence, determination and courage though deep inside my heart I’m weeping and wanted to give up. Somebody help me!!! Thereafter, another lady saw me then asked what I am doing there. Poor thing!! Then I told her I am so and so then she felt sorry for the whole thing. She invited me to come to the main office while waiting for her manager to arrive. Oh thank GOD for her kindness!! I felt much better but still very uneasy while waiting.

After waiting for more than half and hour he came. BOOOMM…Everything went so fast and I couldn’t recall exactly what happened. I mean the conversation and etc. I’m breathing but hardly breathe. What I know, he said, ‘Ok, I will get this and this from your company’. And one question he asked me, ‘Why do you want to do this kind of job? Isn’t this a man’s job?’. Within a second I answered him, ‘Because I studied marketing’. Poor answer but he accepted it by telling me that his daughter is doing so.

From then on, my confidence sky rocketed and like what my superior told me, if I am able to tackle this man, I shouldn't have problems dealing with rest of the businessman/contractor. Now, in someway it could be true but not in every way.

I thank God that for almost 3 months working as Executive Sales God has been helpful, gracious, faithful and good to me.

Obviously, ever since I joined the company, I am getting darker day by day. But I found one thing; this job makes me feel like a bird. Haha…flying and freedom is on my hand!!

I am hoping to build my career in this company though it seems to be too soon to decide. Hehe…See how it goes!!

Working isn’t so bad at all!!! =)