Saturday, June 1, 2013
Suddenly today I feel like blogging. My last post was so significant especially in my walk with God.
Since then I've learnt not to understand everything but to just trust God in everything. Wholeheartedly.
I never knew that what I've gone through last year has birthed such a faith in me to believe God for an amazing future He has prepared for me. It wasn't only last year but as I looked back I knew in my heart that everything that happened in the past few years was to prepared me for something certain.
First of all, I learnt to SURRENDER all my desire and wants including my past, present and future. Allowing Him to work through in every areas of my life. When Jesus surrendered His life on the cross He did it without holding back anything but He has given up everything for my sake. In my personal perspective of surrender it is not merely talking about giving up my own will but to TRUST God enough to handle my life - my desire and wants. In Matthew 6:10 says Your Kingdom come, Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
Secondly, I learnt to activate my FAITH. What is faith? In Hebrew 11: 1 says faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. I do not know what exactly lies ahead of me but I choose to have faith Jesus knowing that He has the best interest for me. He also assures me that He knows the plans He has for me, plans to give me hope and a future (Jeremiah 29 : 11).
Thirdly, I learnt to OBEY the Lord. This are the hardest part of all because I am afraid if I heard it wrongly. I am afraid if the Word that I received and the conviction in my heart wasn't from God. But it became very strong each day as time past. Of course, it took me a while to really think through and prayed through the major decision I was about to made. Yes. To come to this stage of critical decision, I need to surrender and to have faith in God then only I am able to obey the Lord. I took the step of faith and asked God for a sign. I did my part - I applied for the post and the rest I leave it to God. He opened the door and now I join as a full-time staff in serving the Lord. Looking back at it, I never regretted with the decision I've made.
Now, I see how things starts to fall into places one by one. It was amazing how one decision made has brought me into something I could never imagine but I know it was a dream come true which I had surrendered earlier on to Him. My heart desire, I just want His perfect will to be done in my life which are the purpose I am predestined for...way before I was formed in my mother's womb (Jeremiah 1:5).
I am excited because this journey has just begun... ^_^
Friday, June 22, 2012
I was praying hard for something and desperately wanting God to answer my prayer as soon as possible. I even query, "Why i have to go through all these?". I don't understand. >.< Really i don't understand. Tears running down my face each time i think of the situation i am facing. I feel heartache and pain in my chest. Could this be stopped? Could this find the end of it? There was no answered. I am losing my appetite. I am losing my joy. I am losing my spontaneous songs. I am losing my passion.
I tried to figure things out. A way out. Desperately.
I fell on my knees as tears running down on my face. I cried.
I can't even say a word of prayer. I was groaning instead.
I told God, "Will you come and rescue me?"
Each time i entered into my 'prayer mountain' and drove from one destination to another, i never stopped praying that God will showed up. Desperately prayed each time.
A week had past.
I still feel the same.
Weak and no strength to walk through this journey.
I told God, "I can't make it anymore. I have no strength."
I requested someone to prayed for me. I cried in pain.
A word came and pierced deep into my still beating heart.
Wilderness. Obedience. Trust.
My heart beat paused for a while.
I was slapped on my face.
I searched everywhere. High and low.
What is the meaning of wilderness?
It seems that it has gone from my life dictionary and i have to pay for the price to know what it means.
God asked for my total obedience and trust.
Can't i just trust God to bring me through the sand storm that i'm facing?
Can't i just trust God to pull me through the heat in the wilderness?
Will i obey God to walk through this journey faithfully 'til i entered into the promised land?
I can feel my heart beat rhythm has changed.
I can feel my blood circulation comes back to its normal route.
I can feel a warm feeling inside of me.
A new songs.
Smiling and laughing.
How foolish i was?
I wanted things to go on my way.
I wanted to direct God to do what i want as if i am the BOSS.
Not to understand everything. No one will.
Not to insist on my own way.
Never give up. Never quit.
To obey. To trust.
To lean on HIM as HE carried me throughout this journey i called seasons of life.
P.S - No matter what is the situation you are facing now. Continue to walk the journey. Do what is right. Never give up. Don't quit. You will see the silver lining at the end of the gloomy day. It won't last forever. Keep walking for you are not alone.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
P.S The photo wasn't in order. Apology for that :)
(To Malvitta & Jonathan wish you both cepat2 ada baby and don't forget to buy insurance from me..hehehe..sempat)
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
As a result they are homeless, and are forced at one point to stay in a bathroom at a subway station. Motivation drives him to find the Glide Memorial United Methodist Church, which has a homeless shelter primarily for single mothers and their children. Due to demand for the limited rooms, Chris must frantically race from his internship work early each afternoon in order to land a place in line. Chris finds the bone scanner that he lost in the subway station from a demented man who believes it to be a time machine and it is now damaged, but Chris finally repairs it.Disadvantaged by his limited work hours, and knowing that maximizing his client contacts and profits is the only way to earn the one paid position that he and his 19 competitors are fighting for, Chris develops a number of ways to make phone sales calls more efficiently. He also reaches out to potential high value customers, defying protocol. One sympathetic prospect takes him and his son to a professional football game. Regardless of Chris's challenges, he never reveals his lowly circumstances to his co-workers, even going so far as to lend one of his bosses five dollars for a cab, a sum he can barely afford.Concluding his internship, Chris is called into a meeting with his managers. His work has paid off and he is offered the position. Fighting back tears, he rushes to his son's daycare, hugging him. They walk down the street, joking with each other and are passed by a man in a business suit (the real Chris Gardner in a cameo). The epilogue reveals that Chris went on to form his own multi-million dollar brokerage firm.
*Copied from -> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Pursuit_of_Happyness